After sitting on hold with Blue Cross for 30 minutes, I need a cigarette. Thanks healthcare.
I was so confident that a few years from now I would be married. So confident, that I bought the woman I love a ring. Then she told me she didn’t feel the same way.
So…. There’s that…
I’ve written before about the idea that throughout your life, as partners come and go, each one takes a small bit of your heart. Between relationships, it’s important to grow that small bit back and if you do not, you’ll be left without.
I had once been in the position where I felt I was left with only half of a heart after various short relationships. It took a lot of time to feel whole again, knowing exactly who I was. After ‘growing back that heart’, I met a woman to managed to take nearly all of my heart, to be the greatest teammate, and to amaze me every day that we spent together.
Without that, I have a strange feeling of being hollow and choked. My heart feels like a cave, and my throat is in my stomach.
For some reason, today feels like the hardest one yet.
Though, it shouldn’t. It’s a day like any other.
Get up, go to work, while everyone is on a lake or even just in a yard.
Oh, and look forward to getting out at dark and biking home. That’ll be great too.
I’m such a passive aggressive bitch today.